Barely Breathing..

I know what you're doing

I see it all too clear

I only taste the saline

When I kiss away your tears

You really had me going

Wishing on a star

The black holes that surround you

Are heavier by far

I believed in your confusion

So completely torn

Must have been that yesterday

Was the day that I was born

There's not much to examine

There's nothing left to hide

You really can't be serious

If you have to ask me why

I say goodbye

'Cause I am barely breathing

And I can't find the air

Don't know who I'm kidding

Imagining you care

And I could stand here waiting

A fool for another day

I don't suppose it's worth the price

It's worth the price, the price

That I would pay, yeah yeah, yeah

Everyone keeps asking

What's it all about?

I used to be so certain

Now I can't figure out

What is this attraction?

I only feel the pain

There's nothing left to reason

And only you to blame

Will it ever change?

'Cause I am barely breathing

And I can't find the air

Don't know who I'm kidding

Imagining you care

And I could stand here waiting

A fool for another day

I don't suppose it's worth the price

It's worth the price, the price

That I would pay, yeah yeah, yeah

But I'm thinking it over anyway

I'm thinking it over anyway

I've come to find

I may never know

Your changing mind

Is it friend or foe?

I rise above or sink below

With every time

You come and go

Please don't come and go

'Cause I am barely breathing

And I can't find the air

Don't know who I'm kidding

Imagining you care

And I could stand here waiting

A fool for another day

But I don't suppose it's worth the price

It's worth the price, the price

That I would pay, yeah yeah, yeah

But I'm thinking it over anyway

I'm thinking it over anyway

Well, I know what you're doing

I see it all too clear

Angels

Being there for someone is never easy. You always need to know the right thing to say or the right thing to do in order to cause minimim damage to whats already been caused. Yet there are those that always know the right way to make you smile and believe. They'd even do so on account of personal loss... just to see you smile. There's never a way, or atleast a worthy way to thank such angels except hope they believe in your faith in them. Faith. May not seem like much, but in this world, in this age, faith in the kindness and humanity of our community is what keeps us alive. Faith that our lives aren't doomed for the worse after all. Those angels will emerge from within, to remind us of those good times, to enable our happy thoughts, to ease our sorry woes and shove our morose assumptions. Having said that, With no intention do I mean angels from within ourselves but I certainly do not banish the thought that all of us can be angels.. to someone who needs to believe..

To my angel.. Thank you. :)

The answer you seek..

Living confused and blurred,

How do I find the answer you seek,

To the question we all fear,

To the emotion that makes us weak.

You hold my hand with such promise,

And render so much amour,

That I can't help but wonder,

Isn't what we have so pure.

And yet you pose a noxious query,

In fear of yet another loss,
The pain I see through your smile,

When your life is in chaos.

I ask myself, Do I let you be?

Or do I try to reassure you,

Of my constant presence and fidelity,

How do I tell you,

That I'm here for you, to stay,

Without scaring you away.

That I'm here for you, to find,

All that you've lost and sacrificed.

That I'm here for you, no matter what,

If trust in eternity is what you covet.

How do I find the answer you seek,

To a love so strong and passionate,

To a question of fear and dismay,

For all I can say is I'll wait...

Cold as you...

"Cold As You" - Taylor Swift.

You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away,
no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere as cold as you.

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

Oh what a shame,
what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away,
No use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

You never did give a damn thing honey
but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you(Died for you)

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

End. Just end.Please.

Go the Distance...

I have often dreamed, of a far off place 
Where a hero's welcome, would be waiting for me 
Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face 
And a voice keeps saying, this is where I'm meant to be 

I'll be there someday, I can go the distance 
I will find my way, if I can be strong 
I know ev'ry mile, will be worth my while 
When I go the distance, I'll be right where I belong 

Down an unknown road, to embrace my fate 
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you 
And a thousand years, would be worth the wait 
It might take a lifetime, but somehow I'll see it through 

And I won't look back, I can go the distance 
And I'll stay on track, no, I won't accept defeat 
It's an uphill slope, but I won't lose hope 
Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete 

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part 
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart 

Like a shooting star, I will go the distance 
I will search the world, I will face it's harms 
I don't care how far, i can go the distance 
Till I find my hero's welcome, waiting in your arms 

I will search the world, I will face it's harms 
Till I find my hero's welcome, waiting in your arms

Michael Bolton- Go the distance

Forever and Always

I look into your eyes,

With a soft honeyed glaze,

Through the darkness that lies,

I see through the haze,

A murkiness of pain,

A sadness remains,

But I look into your eyes,

And say 'I'll keep you sane'.

I hold your hands,

With a gentle concern,

Feeling every indurate callous,

To understand the burn,

To comprehend every turn,

While I learn the reasons,

For I hold your hands,

With every day and every season.

I believe in your soul.

The kindness and gentleness of you,

With every passing moment,

My belief in you, grew. 

And one day, you will be strong,

Crushing every plateau in sight,

Never just another string-along,

Because I believe in your ways,

Forever and always.

A chapter never finished....

                    A book is never over until you feel the emotions of content or a feeling of wonderment over the characters and their actions. When you try to make sense of all their decisions that led them to the very end of that chapter, to the very end of their purpose in your life. Almost everyday is new page in our book of life. But sometimes there are so many recurring characters that you never want to "kill off" and some that make you wonder 'why did I ever introduce them?'. And then there are those. Those that keep recurring but never stay. Those, in who, you have no say of their purpose in your life. Those, that will put in that twist in your story, the curve ball. Personally I think the story becomes worth it with their presence. The person who you wait to read about again in the book even if they come for just a single paragraph. The person that makes our heart skip a beat and makes us think " Oh I hope they are part of the happy ending".  The person who breaks our heart and wins over us with a simple gesture of kindness and love. The person that makes it all worth-while. The person that could make us feel every emotion and yet calm our sense of self into realms of serenity. The person who you wish was in your life forever and always. 

               There is always someone, that one recurring character, that you know will change your life forever. If only we knew their purpose in our life, their sense as a character. Until then, they will always remain the chapter never finished....

                                                          "All We Are"- One Republic

I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong
Black and white didn't fit you and all along,
You were shaded with patience, your strokes of everything
That I need just to make it, and I believe that...
Time can tear you apart
But it won't break anything that you are, you are


We won't say our goodbyes you know it's better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi


I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would've fit
I figured there's nothing to lose,
I need to get some perspective on these words before I write them down
You're an island and my ship has run aground
Lord knows I'll fail you time and again,
But you and me we're alright


We won't say our goodbyes you know its better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need all we need, a lover's alibi


Every single day that I can breathe, you change my philosophy
I'm never gonna let you pass me by
So don't say your goodbyes you know its better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change [x2]


All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi


So don't say our goodbyes you know its better
We won't break, we won't die

Some things never change...

Six years ago, some time in the month of May, I was lost and confused. Forced to contemplate a future I could have or a life I wasn't yet ready to give up. I had plonked myself on my window seat, hit the 'Play' button on my then working Cassette-Stereo Player to the listen to the melodies of  "Ab Na Ja" while staring at the endless stream of beach wanderers. I was texting one of my best friends at that point, hoping for some guidance or push towards a particular direction. I was all but 17. I couldn't make that life changing decision alone and yet there I was, staring into the shadows of the night, trying to make sense of a life I didn't know I could have. Analyzing decisions I had made and those I needed to make so that I wouldn't regret them six years from then. I had to choose and choose soon. It was life changing at that point.


Its 2012, I have changed my life with that decision in 2006. And here I am, again, in the month of May, plonked on my window seat, texting that very friend and amazed at the number of beach wanderers today. Confused and lost in search of guidance while contemplating a life so different from what every teenager believed she would lead. Reflecting, musing and regretting so many decisions that brought me to this point. Cherishing, reminiscing and relishing every "life changing" situation I had to face to help me face this one. And God knows this is life changing... at this point :)

Makes you wonder, some things never change....
Blog Idea : Jade.