End. Just end.Please.

Go the Distance...

I have often dreamed, of a far off place 
Where a hero's welcome, would be waiting for me 
Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face 
And a voice keeps saying, this is where I'm meant to be 

I'll be there someday, I can go the distance 
I will find my way, if I can be strong 
I know ev'ry mile, will be worth my while 
When I go the distance, I'll be right where I belong 

Down an unknown road, to embrace my fate 
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you 
And a thousand years, would be worth the wait 
It might take a lifetime, but somehow I'll see it through 

And I won't look back, I can go the distance 
And I'll stay on track, no, I won't accept defeat 
It's an uphill slope, but I won't lose hope 
Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete 

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part 
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart 

Like a shooting star, I will go the distance 
I will search the world, I will face it's harms 
I don't care how far, i can go the distance 
Till I find my hero's welcome, waiting in your arms 

I will search the world, I will face it's harms 
Till I find my hero's welcome, waiting in your arms

Michael Bolton- Go the distance

Forever and Always

I look into your eyes,

With a soft honeyed glaze,

Through the darkness that lies,

I see through the haze,

A murkiness of pain,

A sadness remains,

But I look into your eyes,

And say 'I'll keep you sane'.

I hold your hands,

With a gentle concern,

Feeling every indurate callous,

To understand the burn,

To comprehend every turn,

While I learn the reasons,

For I hold your hands,

With every day and every season.

I believe in your soul.

The kindness and gentleness of you,

With every passing moment,

My belief in you, grew. 

And one day, you will be strong,

Crushing every plateau in sight,

Never just another string-along,

Because I believe in your ways,

Forever and always.

A chapter never finished....

                    A book is never over until you feel the emotions of content or a feeling of wonderment over the characters and their actions. When you try to make sense of all their decisions that led them to the very end of that chapter, to the very end of their purpose in your life. Almost everyday is new page in our book of life. But sometimes there are so many recurring characters that you never want to "kill off" and some that make you wonder 'why did I ever introduce them?'. And then there are those. Those that keep recurring but never stay. Those, in who, you have no say of their purpose in your life. Those, that will put in that twist in your story, the curve ball. Personally I think the story becomes worth it with their presence. The person who you wait to read about again in the book even if they come for just a single paragraph. The person that makes our heart skip a beat and makes us think " Oh I hope they are part of the happy ending".  The person who breaks our heart and wins over us with a simple gesture of kindness and love. The person that makes it all worth-while. The person that could make us feel every emotion and yet calm our sense of self into realms of serenity. The person who you wish was in your life forever and always. 

               There is always someone, that one recurring character, that you know will change your life forever. If only we knew their purpose in our life, their sense as a character. Until then, they will always remain the chapter never finished....

                                                          "All We Are"- One Republic

I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong
Black and white didn't fit you and all along,
You were shaded with patience, your strokes of everything
That I need just to make it, and I believe that...
Time can tear you apart
But it won't break anything that you are, you are


We won't say our goodbyes you know it's better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi


I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would've fit
I figured there's nothing to lose,
I need to get some perspective on these words before I write them down
You're an island and my ship has run aground
Lord knows I'll fail you time and again,
But you and me we're alright


We won't say our goodbyes you know its better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need all we need, a lover's alibi


Every single day that I can breathe, you change my philosophy
I'm never gonna let you pass me by
So don't say your goodbyes you know its better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change [x2]


All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi


So don't say our goodbyes you know its better
We won't break, we won't die

Some things never change...

Six years ago, some time in the month of May, I was lost and confused. Forced to contemplate a future I could have or a life I wasn't yet ready to give up. I had plonked myself on my window seat, hit the 'Play' button on my then working Cassette-Stereo Player to the listen to the melodies of  "Ab Na Ja" while staring at the endless stream of beach wanderers. I was texting one of my best friends at that point, hoping for some guidance or push towards a particular direction. I was all but 17. I couldn't make that life changing decision alone and yet there I was, staring into the shadows of the night, trying to make sense of a life I didn't know I could have. Analyzing decisions I had made and those I needed to make so that I wouldn't regret them six years from then. I had to choose and choose soon. It was life changing at that point.


Its 2012, I have changed my life with that decision in 2006. And here I am, again, in the month of May, plonked on my window seat, texting that very friend and amazed at the number of beach wanderers today. Confused and lost in search of guidance while contemplating a life so different from what every teenager believed she would lead. Reflecting, musing and regretting so many decisions that brought me to this point. Cherishing, reminiscing and relishing every "life changing" situation I had to face to help me face this one. And God knows this is life changing... at this point :)

Makes you wonder, some things never change....
Blog Idea : Jade.

This is Now..

The Forgotten word leaves in despair,

Strands astray everywhere,

A scene very familiar to the eye,

Initiated by sorts of broken promises or lies.

Ironically, probity isn't desired,

Despite the belligerent "normalities”,

Yet, here we are in a fix,

Fearing the synchronic ticks.

Do we realize the peace within?

Understand life and its own sins?

Ruminate on our every action?

Brood all their reactions?

Aspiration of peace is a start,

It shouldn't remain just a delicious tart,

Faulty on account of meandering thought,

Where paths of confrontation, are increasingly sought.

Thoughts need a change, for some good

Permanent Ataraxis might be a boon,

Figuring out an alacritous approach,

Releasing all the freedom encroached.

A paradigm world is not far-fetched,

A picayune of effort to remove all wretched

A worldly life, green and calm,

Is, after all , a nibble of the soul's alms.

-Nivedita Vathsangam.

WOW..

Peaceful... Calm.. Happy...But nervous and hopeful..After a long time..