The inevitable jealousy..

No matter how many times you tell yourself " This will not affect me" or " I do not care" , I think the very act of saying those things means it does affect you and you do care. And that is not bad. How can it be bad to feel you are important to someone or just that you are someone that matters the world to them. When that does not happen, with you, but maybe with someone else(especially right in front of you), you can't help but feel jealous. That can't be wrong. Can it?  Of course not, because "I do not care".... yeah... Right!

Staying strong

Things pull you down. They bum you out and make you want to give up. But when people who hurt you don't realize it themselves, there is no reason you need to waste emotions of care, concern, love or affection. Don't waste your time on telling them about your life when they clearly have no interest in it. Until you and them realize excuses will always be just words and never actions.. You will be stuck on a hurtful loop of pain and hatred.. You need to stay strong through all that. Otherwise you are no better than them.. You are at their mercy..

Barely Breathing..

I know what you're doing

I see it all too clear

I only taste the saline

When I kiss away your tears

You really had me going

Wishing on a star

The black holes that surround you

Are heavier by far

I believed in your confusion

So completely torn

Must have been that yesterday

Was the day that I was born

There's not much to examine

There's nothing left to hide

You really can't be serious

If you have to ask me why

I say goodbye

'Cause I am barely breathing

And I can't find the air

Don't know who I'm kidding

Imagining you care

And I could stand here waiting

A fool for another day

I don't suppose it's worth the price

It's worth the price, the price

That I would pay, yeah yeah, yeah

Everyone keeps asking

What's it all about?

I used to be so certain

Now I can't figure out

What is this attraction?

I only feel the pain

There's nothing left to reason

And only you to blame

Will it ever change?

'Cause I am barely breathing

And I can't find the air

Don't know who I'm kidding

Imagining you care

And I could stand here waiting

A fool for another day

I don't suppose it's worth the price

It's worth the price, the price

That I would pay, yeah yeah, yeah

But I'm thinking it over anyway

I'm thinking it over anyway

I've come to find

I may never know

Your changing mind

Is it friend or foe?

I rise above or sink below

With every time

You come and go

Please don't come and go

'Cause I am barely breathing

And I can't find the air

Don't know who I'm kidding

Imagining you care

And I could stand here waiting

A fool for another day

But I don't suppose it's worth the price

It's worth the price, the price

That I would pay, yeah yeah, yeah

But I'm thinking it over anyway

I'm thinking it over anyway

Well, I know what you're doing

I see it all too clear

Angels

Being there for someone is never easy. You always need to know the right thing to say or the right thing to do in order to cause minimim damage to whats already been caused. Yet there are those that always know the right way to make you smile and believe. They'd even do so on account of personal loss... just to see you smile. There's never a way, or atleast a worthy way to thank such angels except hope they believe in your faith in them. Faith. May not seem like much, but in this world, in this age, faith in the kindness and humanity of our community is what keeps us alive. Faith that our lives aren't doomed for the worse after all. Those angels will emerge from within, to remind us of those good times, to enable our happy thoughts, to ease our sorry woes and shove our morose assumptions. Having said that, With no intention do I mean angels from within ourselves but I certainly do not banish the thought that all of us can be angels.. to someone who needs to believe..

To my angel.. Thank you. :)

The answer you seek..

Living confused and blurred,

How do I find the answer you seek,

To the question we all fear,

To the emotion that makes us weak.

You hold my hand with such promise,

And render so much amour,

That I can't help but wonder,

Isn't what we have so pure.

And yet you pose a noxious query,

In fear of yet another loss,
The pain I see through your smile,

When your life is in chaos.

I ask myself, Do I let you be?

Or do I try to reassure you,

Of my constant presence and fidelity,

How do I tell you,

That I'm here for you, to stay,

Without scaring you away.

That I'm here for you, to find,

All that you've lost and sacrificed.

That I'm here for you, no matter what,

If trust in eternity is what you covet.

How do I find the answer you seek,

To a love so strong and passionate,

To a question of fear and dismay,

For all I can say is I'll wait...

Cold as you...

"Cold As You" - Taylor Swift.

You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away,
no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere as cold as you.

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

Oh what a shame,
what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away,
No use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

You never did give a damn thing honey
but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you(Died for you)

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

End. Just end.Please.