24.05.2009..Last few days...

           Another year, Another round of slam books, a fresh batch of students,a fresh mickle of tears..Yet this time,there's something different, something that definitely makes me think...think of the myriad of reasons as to why... why this year pricks a lot harder( or pointier :-p) than the last two years..
Maybe its cause i realize that in a year, I'll be the one leaving..Maybe its cause this year has been the hardest.. Maybe its cause this year... well this was the year I found home in a strange land...This was the year,I found my "tribe" :-)

              As anyone else,I've had my share of ups and downs...But I've learnt to handle those moments with courage and embrace situations of anguish as another experience..A heapful of people have introduced themselves into my life,made their mark and washed their feet off any obligation to persist. Another hatful,that did stay on,more out of love and care than anything else..Well those are the people who've helped erase any scar in my soul, and every nightmare i've unfortunately chanced upon...

               Family away from family.. Not many are lucky enough to experience that feeling.. where you can actually dole out a persona to those around you and appreciate something of a very close knit family thats been created..I was lucky to have Drama.A thought of how can you create a family, from people who want to be someone else,probably arises. But somehow,I think thats what brings you closer.Theatre probably brings out every aspect of you : funny,sad,happy, ecstatic,sick,romantic,loving,caring,hateful,selfish and what not..And your fellow players are the ones that witness all these emotions...Fact is they may not be true..But they might be true as well..so many facets,so many aspects...They accept it..They accept you..just like your family would..Just like your loved one would.. This was the year i got really close to a set of people,consisting of souls literally from every corner of the country,and probably have nothing in common except their love for drama and respect for each other..But there's something else i discovered this year...that we weren't just a collection of individuals, but a single entity that wanted to fashion a melodic theme of friendship and fun..And we did... we whipped up a salad of memories and moments that mean more to us,than a diamond and more precious than platinum :-).

                 An epitome of jobless talks- This was what i wrote a long time ago, to describe a stage, where i came across someone, an antithesis of myself you could say,but nevertheless became an inherent voice in my life.This voice has been like my conscience for quite some time now,looking out for any pitfall or dark alley I may face..And yet granting me the freedom to explore every road and turning, helping me mould myself into a better person.Someone, who unknowingly guided me out of a very bad phase and threw light on a better life ahead.The whole universe probably knows who I'm talking about(except the person itself... little slow you see :-p) and henceforth I find no reason to mention names... All reasons I find are to just express heartfelt gratitude and amour to this sepharic soul, who had the forebearance to stand by and support all those around.You deserve much more than you get,And I'm sure nothing but happiness is on your way sent from heaven itself to carry you through life with serenity..Tears do dwell up when i think about the fact that i may not be able to see you everyday,but i have every faith that nothing will change between us..Like i've always said,It feels like i've known you for years than months,Maybe because most of the time (atleast these days) i see so much of how i want to be in you...My angel..

                     Shrek,Sorry i just had to mention you..There's just so much to say and so much more to do..and so little time... From all that you've taught me till that very last play on stage,I always looked up to you with utmost admiration and affection.Three years has been a long journey but that doesn't seem enough.Your life is already drawn with so many instances,but those were just the outlines and soon the colouring will start..and I'm sure you have all the stationery and accessories to make sure it stays within the lines.. :-) Love ya loads shrek!! Stay the same..

                   There has been so much that has happened in past year..So much that I would love to pen down and maybe read years later to laugh about.. But i guess instances that stand out always deserve a special niche.. a niche carved out just for them..a niche that always be kept safe and warm...
Places change,the weather changes,times change...But how much we change depends on how much we want to change...I've changed...And i love change...

When you make new friends in a brand new town

And you start to think about settlin' down

The things that would have been lost on you

Are now clear as a bell

And you find yourself

Yeah that's when you find yourself

 

Where you go through life

So sure of where you’re headin'

And you wind up lost and it's

The best thing that could have happened

‘Cause sometimes when you lose your way it's really just as well

Because you find yourself

Yeah that’s when you find yourself....

Captain Sprinkleman!!

Its been long since i blessed myself with the privilege

of blogging.... but I suppose i was just waiting for

the right Blog to come along.
I was helping a couple of friends with a junk art

competition.. the theme was SUPERHEROES.We didn't just

create a superhero.. but a scene... and this is how the

story goes..:-
Well the city is called recyclopia... made from

recycled stuff.and somewhere in a village.. there was a

little boy who was outcasted cause he had no talent

like everyone else.He used to be so fascinated with

Harry Potter.. that one day he visited the ministry of

magic to see if there was any magic to give him talent

and yes there was..
But...
The spell had gone wrong..instead he ended up.. as

incendo.. a huge matchbox..
The ministry told him that he can get rid of it.. by

just exhaustin the powers..Which in his case was to

create fire..safely with no harm to others..
Which in his case was to create fire
All he needed was wood...
so he started exhausting it..
But while doing so.. he realized how much power he

had..
and hence...Power corrupted his soul.. and he found a

way to keep his powers..
and decided to take revenge.. on those that outcasted

him.. cuz now he had a talent..
(evil laughter)
so he decided to target the city of recyclopia cuz it

was easily flammable..And he set about doing the same..

Now about the same time when incendo was born.. another

very talented young chap was born in the city of

recyclopia...he had amazing powers.. but he had no

knowledge of why he had them..
And his purpose on earth..it was when incendo came

alive.. that he turned into SPRINKLEMAN!( we even gave

him an underwear with "S" on it lol)
Spinkle man has a sprinkler on one hand and a vaccum

cleaner on the other hand..
He has the abilty to suck up all the ash .. and when he

does.. it goes thru his body.. and all the ash is

converted into a complex polymer which is sprayed out

thru the sprinkler..
Now.. the sprinkled liquid not only extingishes the

flames..
But when it touches the ground it sprouts into grass

within days!!
Hence.. sprinkle man saves the day.. he also has a fire

proof cape made of sand that has been modified to have

the properties of sand but ultra light!!
The villain has to have some pride.. so incendo has a

self destruction method..
Incase he is about to lose...
( ego clash)
To one of his hands there is dynamite.. if he decides

to self destruct.. all he has to do his swing the

dynamite to his shoulders.. and shake shake shake...

(lol) till it lights up... hehe
(since he's a giant matchbox!)

That is the superhero story

We even have a jingle for the hero:

Captain sprinkle!! captain sprinkle!!not single

wrinkle! he turns all the ash.. to lush green grass!!

captain sprinkle!! SET WET GO!!(psshhh) :-p

This is me...

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

A bundle of joy...

Ever noticed how a simple tug of war(with socks) can bring immense joy to your life... But i guess the credit goes more to the opponent of this battle of strength.. My opponent is 2.5 kgs, about 6 inches tall, but has the advantage of being on all fours...
On the other hand.. besides being an excellent active companion.. He also has the cutest smile,the widest yawn,and most adorable ears i have ever seen..not to mention his excellent sense of smell...
He has this addiction to legs and fingers too... all he needs to curl up and doze off is a feet as large as him.. and that ain't too difficult at this point of his life... fingers?? well lets just he likes to play rough... even if it means biting them off... but its all in the game...
He had his most active day yesterday... he felt right at place when we took him to his kingdom... Oh my Prince ruled it all right... from every stone to the highest leaf... he even made the effort to mark his territories.. Now this was an achievement for him considering all this is new to him..
And its amazing how he fits right into the family.. He is the man!
Well if you haven't figured it out by now..I have recently been gifted a little bundle of joy.. A Labrador puppy.. an amazingly cute puppy who I've named Prince Alex( very complicated story why.. lets just settle for ' he responded to it' for now..) .. Prince for short.. and in the two days I've comehome.. I felt the love and care that i never thought i'd feel again... Thankyou lord for bringing some happiness into my life.. hope Prince is blessed with long life.. and May ceaser's soul rest in peace... will always love for what he was to me and will always be.. my hero..

Someone special...

He seemed to be tensed,
Frantic to finish his work,
All his frustrations fenced,
Between the norms that lurk.

Lines of dismay appeared as a frown,
Beads of efforts seemed to make him drown,
His hands faced the sheets in fear,
The air so fragile with the deadline near.

I wanted to go upto him,
And place my arms around,
Tell him 'Its not end of the world'
And remind him that he isn't duty bound.

But I didn't know how to approach,
Or tread across the thin ice,
I feared breaking a barrier,
A barrier that shouldn't demise

So,I started to retreat,
Still wondering when we could meet,
When I saw him reach behind,
Pulling out his memories of time.

He looked at the stills of life,
which suddenly brought an exuberant smile,
The smile that I longed to see,
The smile that made me believe.

I pondered at the cause of change.
A slight turn left me deranged,
For he was looking at his family,
Something that brought a flutter within me.

It was then I realized the worth,
Of the Largest gestures to the smallest of words,
And At that moment,a familiar feeling,among the rest,stood above.
An urge to tell him,' Dad, you're always loved'.

Life..

Living in a world of mistakes,
I can see hope in all the fake,
Living to see another day,
Hoping to feel another ray.

The sorrows that bring us down,
The pain in which we drown,
Seem to vanish with a single smile,
Bringing out the happier side.

The irony of life is itself,
Seeking to find light when deaf,
Dreaming about castles in heaven,
All reality and monotony forgotten.

Imagine the world were to stop,
stop at a moment which we despise,
Would we apply all that was taught,
To bring back a life that would suffice.

Thinking and toiling under the cloud
What use is it if we are proud,
Getting Thru'life seems to be our aim,
In the end,satisfied or drained isn't based on the money or fame.

So,move on with your dreams,
Even if they seem bleak,
A day will come to face,
The rewards as beautiful as a clean lake.

Heaven or Earth...

Four down, two more to go!!
Alright, you can stop scratching your heads, I'm talking about my third semester

exams.Dreaded exams.. but hey! its what after the exams that i look forward to.. I shall be

travelling to a place of glamour and shopping!( unfortunately that doesn't excite me.. But

just for the heck of the place, i put it in..) The place..? Nah..Personal details aren't

worth mentioning here...
Anyways.. besides looking foward to the trip... what also comes to my head is the memories

of the days gone by. I still remember coming to the new room and getting adjusted to new

roommates, feeling a bit awkward but at the same time ecstatic about the new year,hoping

for an eventful sem ahead..And boy was it eventful!!

From
the new bonds formed, the memories made, from jumping bed to bed and the late night

movie marathons along with maggi sessions coupled with bitching rants.. staying up late at

night,not for exams, but because we enjoyed each other's company, dancing to autrocious

tunes and singing in abnormal pitches, getting a little spiritual too ( thanks to

roommates!), getting to know people who you'd never thought you'd mingle with,spending

hours in the canteen talking nonsense,the unforgettable birthday baths, clubs,culturals,

"dramas"...

TO
The fights, the misunderstandings,the breakups,the lost love, the lost friendship!,the

stacks of xerox of jibberish, the boring classes,the tension, the enemies made, the mishaps

and everything bad you can think of!.. oh i forgot, the "dramas"... Hehe...

Eventful? yes, it was.. But also memorable- memorable in a way you'll never forget or

never commit the same mistakes again :)
It's hard not to love the days gone by, despite cursing them so much.. cause whether you

want to believe it or not, whatever happened, made your days like seconds... happy

seconds... You will remember the best times and the worst times.. but never seperate..

(they kinda go hand in hand).And i guess thats what makes life...
Thankyou to all those who made my life amazing so far.. and to all of them, just remember

that i love you and will always be there for you.. thru thick and thin..
(besides my family)

Dedicated to( not in any hierarchy)
John(CB)
Pourush(puru)
Shwetha(Buff)
Parvathi(The brain)
Aishwarya(Vaidy!)
Shriya (The twins)
Varsha
Divya(Dancing queen)
Dharini( SIL! :))
suchi( puppy nosh)
Swati( Beauty queen)
Neha(mokkai queen)
Prashi( Pikachu!)
Priya(PP)
Roxy(rocski)
Sandy(Bulb)
Ushashi(Brat)
Spandana(Mommmy!)
Pavi(Buffy)
Sriram(kadalai master)

Love you all from the bottom of my heart and I'm sorry if i've ever hurt you or done

anything to harm you.. Please forgive me.. No matter what has happened in the past and what

will happen in the future.. you all will be close to me always..and have a special place in

my life..and memories..
( a true and GENUINE smile [with my dimples.. heehee] and a huge hug to all)

PS- MORE GOOD MEMORIES than BAD I SEE.. looking forward to more!!