Maybe its cause i realize that in a year, I'll be the one leaving..Maybe its cause this year has been the hardest.. Maybe its cause this year... well this was the year I found home in a strange land...This was the year,I found my "tribe" :-)
As anyone else,I've had my share of ups and downs...But I've learnt to handle those moments with courage and embrace situations of anguish as another experience..A heapful of people have introduced themselves into my life,made their mark and washed their feet off any obligation to persist. Another hatful,that did stay on,more out of love and care than anything else..Well those are the people who've helped erase any scar in my soul, and every nightmare i've unfortunately chanced upon...
Family away from family.. Not many are lucky enough to experience that feeling.. where you can actually dole out a persona to those around you and appreciate something of a very close knit family thats been created..I was lucky to have Drama.A thought of how can you create a family, from people who want to be someone else,probably arises. But somehow,I think thats what brings you closer.Theatre probably brings out every aspect of you : funny,sad,happy, ecstatic,sick,romantic,loving,caring,hateful,selfish and what not..And your fellow players are the ones that witness all these emotions...Fact is they may not be true..But they might be true as well..so many facets,so many aspects...They accept it..They accept you..just like your family would..Just like your loved one would.. This was the year i got really close to a set of people,consisting of souls literally from every corner of the country,and probably have nothing in common except their love for drama and respect for each other..But there's something else i discovered this year...that we weren't just a collection of individuals, but a single entity that wanted to fashion a melodic theme of friendship and fun..And we did... we whipped up a salad of memories and moments that mean more to us,than a diamond and more precious than platinum :-).
An epitome of jobless talks- This was what i wrote a long time ago, to describe a stage, where i came across someone, an antithesis of myself you could say,but nevertheless became an inherent voice in my life.This voice has been like my conscience for quite some time now,looking out for any pitfall or dark alley I may face..And yet granting me the freedom to explore every road and turning, helping me mould myself into a better person.Someone, who unknowingly guided me out of a very bad phase and threw light on a better life ahead.The whole universe probably knows who I'm talking about(except the person itself... little slow you see :-p) and henceforth I find no reason to mention names... All reasons I find are to just express heartfelt gratitude and amour to this sepharic soul, who had the forebearance to stand by and support all those around.You deserve much more than you get,And I'm sure nothing but happiness is on your way sent from heaven itself to carry you through life with serenity..Tears do dwell up when i think about the fact that i may not be able to see you everyday,but i have every faith that nothing will change between us..Like i've always said,It feels like i've known you for years than months,Maybe because most of the time (atleast these days) i see so much of how i want to be in you...My angel..
Shrek,Sorry i just had to mention you..There's just so much to say and so much more to do..and so little time... From all that you've taught me till that very last play on stage,I always looked up to you with utmost admiration and affection.Three years has been a long journey but that doesn't seem enough.Your life is already drawn with so many instances,but those were just the outlines and soon the colouring will start..and I'm sure you have all the stationery and accessories to make sure it stays within the lines.. :-) Love ya loads shrek!! Stay the same..
There has been so much that has happened in past year..So much that I would love to pen down and maybe read years later to laugh about.. But i guess instances that stand out always deserve a special niche.. a niche carved out just for them..a niche that always be kept safe and warm...
Places change,the weather changes,times change...But how much we change depends on how much we want to change...I've changed...And i love change...
When you make new friends in a brand new town
And you start to think about settlin' down
The things that would have been lost on you
Are now clear as a bell
And you find yourself
Yeah that's when you find yourself
Where you go through life
So sure of where you’re headin'
And you wind up lost and it's
The best thing that could have happened
‘Cause sometimes when you lose your way it's really just as well
Because you find yourself
Yeah that’s when you find yourself....
