This is me...

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

A bundle of joy...

Ever noticed how a simple tug of war(with socks) can bring immense joy to your life... But i guess the credit goes more to the opponent of this battle of strength.. My opponent is 2.5 kgs, about 6 inches tall, but has the advantage of being on all fours...
On the other hand.. besides being an excellent active companion.. He also has the cutest smile,the widest yawn,and most adorable ears i have ever seen..not to mention his excellent sense of smell...
He has this addiction to legs and fingers too... all he needs to curl up and doze off is a feet as large as him.. and that ain't too difficult at this point of his life... fingers?? well lets just he likes to play rough... even if it means biting them off... but its all in the game...
He had his most active day yesterday... he felt right at place when we took him to his kingdom... Oh my Prince ruled it all right... from every stone to the highest leaf... he even made the effort to mark his territories.. Now this was an achievement for him considering all this is new to him..
And its amazing how he fits right into the family.. He is the man!
Well if you haven't figured it out by now..I have recently been gifted a little bundle of joy.. A Labrador puppy.. an amazingly cute puppy who I've named Prince Alex( very complicated story why.. lets just settle for ' he responded to it' for now..) .. Prince for short.. and in the two days I've comehome.. I felt the love and care that i never thought i'd feel again... Thankyou lord for bringing some happiness into my life.. hope Prince is blessed with long life.. and May ceaser's soul rest in peace... will always love for what he was to me and will always be.. my hero..

Someone special...

He seemed to be tensed,
Frantic to finish his work,
All his frustrations fenced,
Between the norms that lurk.

Lines of dismay appeared as a frown,
Beads of efforts seemed to make him drown,
His hands faced the sheets in fear,
The air so fragile with the deadline near.

I wanted to go upto him,
And place my arms around,
Tell him 'Its not end of the world'
And remind him that he isn't duty bound.

But I didn't know how to approach,
Or tread across the thin ice,
I feared breaking a barrier,
A barrier that shouldn't demise

So,I started to retreat,
Still wondering when we could meet,
When I saw him reach behind,
Pulling out his memories of time.

He looked at the stills of life,
which suddenly brought an exuberant smile,
The smile that I longed to see,
The smile that made me believe.

I pondered at the cause of change.
A slight turn left me deranged,
For he was looking at his family,
Something that brought a flutter within me.

It was then I realized the worth,
Of the Largest gestures to the smallest of words,
And At that moment,a familiar feeling,among the rest,stood above.
An urge to tell him,' Dad, you're always loved'.

Life..

Living in a world of mistakes,
I can see hope in all the fake,
Living to see another day,
Hoping to feel another ray.

The sorrows that bring us down,
The pain in which we drown,
Seem to vanish with a single smile,
Bringing out the happier side.

The irony of life is itself,
Seeking to find light when deaf,
Dreaming about castles in heaven,
All reality and monotony forgotten.

Imagine the world were to stop,
stop at a moment which we despise,
Would we apply all that was taught,
To bring back a life that would suffice.

Thinking and toiling under the cloud
What use is it if we are proud,
Getting Thru'life seems to be our aim,
In the end,satisfied or drained isn't based on the money or fame.

So,move on with your dreams,
Even if they seem bleak,
A day will come to face,
The rewards as beautiful as a clean lake.

Heaven or Earth...

Four down, two more to go!!
Alright, you can stop scratching your heads, I'm talking about my third semester

exams.Dreaded exams.. but hey! its what after the exams that i look forward to.. I shall be

travelling to a place of glamour and shopping!( unfortunately that doesn't excite me.. But

just for the heck of the place, i put it in..) The place..? Nah..Personal details aren't

worth mentioning here...
Anyways.. besides looking foward to the trip... what also comes to my head is the memories

of the days gone by. I still remember coming to the new room and getting adjusted to new

roommates, feeling a bit awkward but at the same time ecstatic about the new year,hoping

for an eventful sem ahead..And boy was it eventful!!

From
the new bonds formed, the memories made, from jumping bed to bed and the late night

movie marathons along with maggi sessions coupled with bitching rants.. staying up late at

night,not for exams, but because we enjoyed each other's company, dancing to autrocious

tunes and singing in abnormal pitches, getting a little spiritual too ( thanks to

roommates!), getting to know people who you'd never thought you'd mingle with,spending

hours in the canteen talking nonsense,the unforgettable birthday baths, clubs,culturals,

"dramas"...

TO
The fights, the misunderstandings,the breakups,the lost love, the lost friendship!,the

stacks of xerox of jibberish, the boring classes,the tension, the enemies made, the mishaps

and everything bad you can think of!.. oh i forgot, the "dramas"... Hehe...

Eventful? yes, it was.. But also memorable- memorable in a way you'll never forget or

never commit the same mistakes again :)
It's hard not to love the days gone by, despite cursing them so much.. cause whether you

want to believe it or not, whatever happened, made your days like seconds... happy

seconds... You will remember the best times and the worst times.. but never seperate..

(they kinda go hand in hand).And i guess thats what makes life...
Thankyou to all those who made my life amazing so far.. and to all of them, just remember

that i love you and will always be there for you.. thru thick and thin..
(besides my family)

Dedicated to( not in any hierarchy)
John(CB)
Pourush(puru)
Shwetha(Buff)
Parvathi(The brain)
Aishwarya(Vaidy!)
Shriya (The twins)
Varsha
Divya(Dancing queen)
Dharini( SIL! :))
suchi( puppy nosh)
Swati( Beauty queen)
Neha(mokkai queen)
Prashi( Pikachu!)
Priya(PP)
Roxy(rocski)
Sandy(Bulb)
Ushashi(Brat)
Spandana(Mommmy!)
Pavi(Buffy)
Sriram(kadalai master)

Love you all from the bottom of my heart and I'm sorry if i've ever hurt you or done

anything to harm you.. Please forgive me.. No matter what has happened in the past and what

will happen in the future.. you all will be close to me always..and have a special place in

my life..and memories..
( a true and GENUINE smile [with my dimples.. heehee] and a huge hug to all)

PS- MORE GOOD MEMORIES than BAD I SEE.. looking forward to more!!

Little things do matter...

Noticed when something really bad happens to you, you've got a bunch of people (who mean a lot to you) tell you that it isn't important.. It's just a small thing.. You've got so much more ahead of you.. How will you face that?
Now that feeling of stupidity(of fretting over something unimportant) does dawn upon you with those words.. But don't you think that unless it meant something to you, you wouldn't be feeling bad in the first place? True ain't it?( sorry for the archaic English)
Let's take an example, shall we?

One of my best friends' birthday.....

Before i embark upon this journey to memory land... Let me enlighten you on the finer aspects of this vivid sketch(etched into my gray matter) - We are a group of six... became close one of those very few "educational" tours gifted to us by our school... and close ever since... The years have rolled on since we graduated and moved on to college.. But i suppose we have our ways to keep in touch ( mine is rarely replying or answering calls.. sorry about that guys..but i guess u understand why).. Atleast for me that doesn't change the closeness or how high i hold them in my life...
Suprisingly.. one very small and i suppose insignificant mishap changed that feeling... (now here is where the story starts..)...

One of my best friends' birthday.... we always wish each other and send cards or sometimes even gifts.. This year wasn't any different in that aspect.. What was different was that, this year, she decided to publicize our efforts...unfortunately... (this was what i heard) while putting up something my friends had sent her from chennai.. She felt tired and postponed mine to the next day...
I guess the more unfortunate thing for her was that orkut has updates.. so i noticed her updated album.. And well i frankly was hurt ( I did not know about the reasons and from what i know of the girl in question.. she never postpones)...

Someone close told me that it didn't matter.. As long as you were happy with what you gave her and she thanked you for it.. Its nothing to be depressed about.. I nodded and agreed.. But as for anyone, that twinge still remained.. The feeling that maybe my way of keeping in touch was actually the cause for all this.. Something so simple caused a lot of grief...
Things are settled now.. Almost.. i still feel left out.. but I've learnt to live with it... not accept it.. but move on... i can always weave my way back in.. but in due time i suppose.. the healer( my ingenious brain :P) needs its sidekick ( my heart) to be healed first... ( so its an internal task first.. he he)

I guess you got my point... little things do matter... Like for instance.. The 13th of every month... NO NO... Not as an omen.. This day is actually "our gang day". Childish as it may seem... and saddening that we need a day to make it a point to talk to each other.. atleast we make the effort... because well.. from my side.. they still are important to me.. after all i did have the best moments of my life with my pack of six( sounds like beer cans doesn't it.. lol).. they are still the people i'd run to when i was in trouble and i couldn't tell my parents.. or my latest crush.. or a high score in a subject or even if i want to scream at someone.. Because I know they'll understand, they'll listen and they will understand.. help out if they could...they will be there for me, like they have before....
And just like i will be there for them too.. always..
Cheers you guys!
Happy thirteenth!!

Oh no.. Not again!!

It's 12th Nov,2007 (nail biting!).
I have four more days for my third semester exams.. And I have hardly touched( leave alone study) my books.. Me being myself(duh!), I brought all my books like an idiot, in hopes that I'd be able to make up for the not so satisfactory internals... And well lets just say that it ain't going too well..
Right now, My interest seems to be hovering around my new nike bag and its various compartments(hoping to find more)..
What is the point of exams when what we're learning has nothing to do with what we really want to do....!!!
more later...